1. |
Forgive Again
04:28
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i’ve been told that i can’t feel an emotion
i can hide it underneath like an ocean
i can lie in the face of your devotion
i just hide it underneath this commotion
with the door wide open
did you see me falling
were my knees all dirty
and broken
can you forgive
forgive it all
forgive it all again
can you forgive
forgive at all
yet
i’ve been told that i can’t feel an emotion
i can hide it underneath like an ocean
i can lie right through the teeth of devotion
i can’t fight what I believe is in motion
with my eyes wide open
and my fingers closing
with my knees all dirty
and broken
can you forgive
forgive it all
I know you can’t forget
can you forgive
forgive at all
yet
with the door wide open
did you see me falling
with my knees all dirty
and broken
can you forgive
forgive it all
forgive it all again
can you forgive
forgive at all
yet
can you forgive
forgive it all
I know you can’t forget
can you forgive
forgive at all
yet
(holding my head up
can’t make my mind up
tell me the story
say something
say some)
i can hide it underneath all the ocean
i can hide it underneath my devotion
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2. |
Battles
03:43
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say the word
I won’t fall to pieces
like the world
slipping in the creases
you and I could die
a thousand times
before the war is hung
out
for its crimes, I…
break my hands
losing battles
giving up
the devil I know
take a chance
choosing battles
wake up
make mistakes
falling backwards into
no embrace
pressing forward, is it
over now or over complicated?
over now and grave
break my hands
losing battles
giving up
the devil I know
take a chance
choosing battles
waking up
the devil I don't
destiny calls
the rest of me is falling
desperately, you're stalling
you're stalling, stalling
the devil I don't
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3. |
Connect
03:47
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at times i wish that i could disappear
in these walls, they're getting nearer
fearless words hiding under the tongue
travel further in the songs sung
little teeth will bite right open
all the wounds i keep on sewing up
check your mirror, check your phone
let's go,
I know
how to show we're not the same child
stand right here and
if they keep staring
who's caring
I don't fear what's
keeping them guessing
and stressing
I know we wanted
to connect
confess darling
I know we want it
we want it
we want it yeah
tiny whispers in the ear they go
seeping poison in the shadows
scribble patterns into eyes so blind
all the crooked roads we unwind
skinny needles keep us woven
if you feel you're all alone tonight
peel the shadows off my lips that shy
and try
to remind them how to shine (just)
stand right here and
if they keep staring
who's caring
I don't fear what's
keeping them guessing
and stressing
I know we wanted
to connect
confess
darling
I know we want it
we want it
we want it yeah
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4. |
Dangerous
03:55
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so anxious to see you
I drop everything
you feed on my weakness
but I don't complain
push bodies like blankets
on top of my sin
a dance with a devil
delicately thin
dangerous, dangerous
danger always will find me
dangerous, the two of us
when your arms are around me
I pull you inside me
then push you away
I pull you inside
just to
feel this decay
you call me in darkness
I scratch at your door
I've tasted the sickness
but I want some more
dangerous, dangerous
danger always surrounds me
dangerous, the two of us
when your arms are around me
oh oh oh oh
I've been running around you
oh oh oh oh
I'll be running away
(in danger, in danger)
so anxious to see you
I drop everything
you
feed on my weakness
but I don't complain
I lick up the poison
from inside your tongue
and hide you forever
as I come undone
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5. |
Insomnia
03:25
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this is insomnia
but i won't miss a beat
behind the lock-ed doors
are you still fast asleep
and when the world slows down
kinda feel like i drown
my dog curled at my feet
but i won't miss a beat
oh oh oh oh oh oh
this is insomnia
some kind of phobia
another endless night
never a lullaby
and even when i share
my bed, i sit and stare
my screen let's me escape
to where we're all awake
oh oh oh oh oh oh
this is insomnia
and i won't miss a beat
the night goes on and on
i read what you delete
they fall off one by one
until i'm left alone
they fall off one by one
until i'm left alone-oh
fuck it, your shuteye
we don't need no lullaby - no
this is insomnia
anxious utopia
why not go out and play
then we could sleep all day
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6. |
Dissipate
02:57
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just let it go and dissipate
we're fading this love, this love
a small abuse to illustrate
we're faking this love
another death to celebrate
we're faking this love, this love
no heaven to anticipate
no faith in this love
toss my heart and hope to hide it
take these needles off my eyelids
let it go, let it fade
another view to subjugate
we're fading this love, this love
we're way too cool to suffocate
we're faking this love
too occupied to demonstrate
we're faking this love, this love
we gave enough for goodness sake
no faith in this love, this love
toss my heart and hope to hide it
take these needles off my eyelids
let it go, let it fade away
toss my heart and hope to hide it
take these needles off my eyelids
you don't know what I saw today
let it fade away, let it fade away
toss my heart and hide it
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7. |
Explode
03:10
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you got me all wrong
this demon inside
has always been. it's never been
...
something I hide
I can't be saved,
I can't be saved
when it's coming on strong
I can't be saved,
I won't behave
so I just let it explode
(I will)
let it out of control
(I will)
with my body and soul
(I will)
I'll just let it explode
I fought it too long
I'm cutting these strings
marionette,
my wicked twin
I'm setting you free
I can't be saved,
I can't be saved
when it's coming on strong
I can't be saved
, I won't behave
so I just let it explode
(I will)
Let it out of control
(I will)
With my body and soul
(I will)
I'll just let it explode
fight the fight
with the windows cold
and all the ashes have blown
with the mirrors broke
its just an image that's gone
so I just let it explode
(I will)
Let it out of control
(I will)
With my body and soul
(I will)
I'll just let it explode
I can't be saved
I can't be saved
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8. |
Gone Gone Gone
03:30
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gone gone gone
gone from my bones
break through the glass
with your gun on my pulse
Gone gone gone
gone from my lungs
breathe in the water
you slip from my tongue
ay-ay
gone gone gone
gone from my bones
take every last bit of your poison soul
held my breath
till you fell low
find someone else
who can keep you afloat
drowning in a life so shallow
eating words you could not swallow
gave away your last tomorrow
no one there left to follow
ay-ay
gone gone gone
gone from my skull
sweep up the pieces
you let come undone
out of your reach
i can breathe easy
letting you go
i can breathe easy
letting you go
i can breathe easy
letting you know
i can breathe
gone gone gone
gone from my bones
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9. |
Cautionary Lives
04:05
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if we fall hard
so what
we'll show our scars
so bold
spill a drink
on the floor
getting high
do some more
what a day
such a bore
couldn't stay
anymore
fuck i'm high
like before
use it up
such a bore
throw hands up this time
hide mountains we climb
we can breathe a temporary sigh
living free in cautionary lives
we don't see with ordinary eyes
you and me lead cautionary lives
but we might fall
so what
we'll sow what's ours
so what
spill a drink
on the floor
getting high
do some more
what a day
such a bore
couldn't stay
anymore
fuck i'm high
like before
use it up
such a bore
just once in awhile
we kill with a smile
we can breathe a temporary sigh
living free in cautionary lives
we don't see with ordinary eyes
you and me lead cautionary lives
we can breathe
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10. |
Lipstick Bruises
02:35
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pick up the pace
try to erase
all the fears that choose us
playing for keeps
i like to leave
you with lipstick bruises
damn you
fought this back forever
but at this moment
feel much better now
push me away
cause i want some more
push me away
i hit the floor
begging for more
oh but you won't give me
brush off the leaves
from both my knees
but I like them hurting
damn you
why won't this
last forever
the pain that I wanted
feels like pleasure now
push me away
cause i want some more
push me away
cause i want some more
push me away
cause i want some more
damn you I want it
damn you want it
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11. |
In Diamond White
04:25
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hold my hand
i'm waiting for you
take these words
for nothing but truth
pain is on the inside
you see right through
delve into the divide
I'm praying for you
to leave this world
behind and light it
in diamond white
I embrace you
just take this girl invited
in diamond white
I fade in you
light like thunder
(open the shutters)
there's no other
(that I've discovered)
just take my hand
and fall through
in diamond white
I fade in you
pulse by pulse
with nothing around
drown these tears
in radiant sound
pain is on the inside
you feel it too
luminous and untied
i’m begging for you
to leave this world
behind and light it
in diamond white
I embrace you
just take this girl invited
in diamond white
I fade in you
light like thunder
(open the shutters)
there's no other
(that I've discovered)
just take my hand
and fall through
in diamond white
I fade in you
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12. |
Severed
04:04
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this is my heart
will you remember it's sound
I'll do my part
to keep you here in these arms
these severed parts
they can never be found
when we're apart
will you remember this sound
it's grey here
it's cold here
I do fear
we're done
don't leave me
in pieces
your cold shadows fall
these severed parts
we bury deep in the ground
this bleeding heart
you will remember it's sound
oh oh tell me you'll stay
it's grey here
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